Pre title of Momma I had many opinions and views regarding numerous subjects when it came to raising children, one of those regarding breastfeeding. It was my opinion that children should not be breastfed past the age of one year. Well, as many of you know a year and come and past for my little Sawyer and he is now nearing 13 months. As hard as it is for me to admit this (being that it doesn't happen often) my views have changed...and I mean changed big time! At this point my mind cannot allow itself to wrap around the idea of not nursing my sweet boy to sleep or first thing when he wakes up. We simply just aren't ready to give it up. This special bond that we have shared this past year has been more than I could ever imagine! The early mornings when the sun hasn't even popped over the trees across the field and all we hear is the fridge dropping ice into the freezer or the dog rolling around in the bedroom thinking about wanting to go out and the fan still on high from the night just down the hall in the bedroom. These are the moments I sit and occasionally think oh wouldn't it be nice to be sleeping in but then I look down and see his sweet little face eating what only I can provide, so comforted and relaxed in my arms as if he doesn't have a care in the world. His little eyes opening and closing softly as he tries to wake himself up completely and look at me. All of these things are better than any fairy tale I've ever seen, dreamed, or heard of. This is life, our life, and I am not prepared to change that based on my past ideas of how nursing should be done nor anyone else's. I know our day will come when we have to give our time up for other things but for now I am savoring each moment to the fullest and I am pretending that our time will never end.
I personally owe an apology to anyone I once shared my opisite opinions with. I knew when I decided to nurse my Sawyer that we would have a special bond that many other Moms had always told me about but I had NO idea exactly how it would feel and how deeply saddened I would be when it came time to end. The best way I can describe this is it's like a roller coaster that I am not ready to get off of. I was soo scared at first that he wouldn't latch or that I would be so sore that I couldn't go on or continue but once we took off I was at ease and loving it! I was blessed by God to have this opportunity that not everyone gets and I planned to appreciate every second! We had ups and downs, supplementing at 8 months because my supply was down which was crushing to say the least but then we figured that out, it wasn't so bad...we just added a bottle into the mix...those sleepless nights when he was newborn and it seemed as if he had no other purpose on this earth but to eat! Now I can see the stopping point up ahead and I know our ride is almost over....I will cherish this bond for the remainder of life and always remember our late nights and early mornings together!
I will not change every opinon nor do I want to, but please be curtious of all breastfeeding mommas, it is not always easy being a 24 hour buffet and it's definitely not easy saying goodbye to the one thing that has stayed consisant since the birth of our sweet babies...breastfeeding! As our babies grow and change so do their needs from clothing sizes to sleeping patterns but one thing stays consistent and that is, the need to eat! Each Momma is different with different views and ways of parenting...it is not anyone else's position to tell another Mom when to stop breastfeeding whether that 2,8,12, or 24 months! As for Sawyer and I...we will stop when the time is right...and it won't be right now!:)
Here are some special pictures of my little and I that I will always cherish!
The moment my life changed forever...
I will never forget that little stinker ate for almost an hour right after birth! It took us two hours to get ready for visitors:)!
Cherish your moments Mommies! It won't last forever!
Xoxo- Sawyer's Momma
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